Personally, I feel like I've been giving in too much to everything. Maybe it's time I give up finally. Yes, I'm walking away from everything, no matter what it is. I pressurize myself way too much, IMHO. No one really gives a second shit, let alone a first shit about whatever I do for them, be it something small or something big. Why should I give a damn when no one does? No matter how much I've done, it's disregarded and what I haven't done, is regarded. Where's the justice in that?
I have said this over fifty times in my whole life (just an imaginary figure) that I'm not going to care about anything anymore and this time, I wish I stand by what I say. It hurts alot to be treated this way, you know. It's some sort of a big blow to me every time, even though I've been in such a situation alot of times before. There's just something different this time: I'm saying this not through a conscious mind but through a completely subconscious mind that has brought me to this conclusion. There's just too much beauty in subconscious decisions and it's really there this time.
To bring matters in one sentence, this is the death of me.
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